Saturday, June 3, 2006

This Entry Brought To You By The Letter "Z" and The Color "Blue"


Such a pretty blue.
The color of my eyes.
Robin's Egg Blue according to my Mom.
A tranquil calming color.
This is what they are supposed to do.
Calm my stress, bring some relief to whatever-it-is that I'm experiencing.
Instead they are causing me more anxiety.
I'm frightened.
Frightened of taking them and of not taking them.
Which is worse?

7 comments:

Navhelowife said...

Try it. If it doesn't work, then stop. Give it a chance, and see if it helps. You deserve to feel better.

Wicked Stepmom said...

An important caveat that I forgot to mention: I am breastfeeding. The Mouse is 6 months old. If it weren't for her, I'd have popped that sucker the minute Hubby returned with the prescription. I've been assured that it's safe for breastfeeding mothers, but still...

Kat said...

Can you try 1/2 a pill, and see if that works - before going with the whole dose?

And, I know this may sound incredibly wacky...but have you thought about meditation at all? My mother did TM (still does) and it can calm her like nothing else.

rose said...

I'm sorry that this is causing you so much anxiety.
Can you call La Leche league and have someone there set your mind at ease about taking it while breastfeeding?
I know of people who have taken meds while breastfeeding, but I don't know anyone who I can put you in touch with directly.
I'm sorry you are so torn about it.

stepblog said...

I think you're right to be anxious (probably not the thing to say to someone suffering from anxiety!) I just had a nightmarish experience with a drug called Cymbalta that was prescribed to me for anxiety that I am thankfully off of now. But, all of my friends who take these things swear by them. Just pay close attention to how you react and don't let your doctor brush you off if something seems not right.

InterstellarLass said...

Not taking them is more anxiety inducing. But I would be worried about the breastfeeding too. Except if you don't, whatever it is might get worse. Your anxiety can be passed to The Mouse too. She can sense it. And if you believe my grandmother, you'll have sour milk that gives The Mouse gas.

Wicked Stepmom said...

After speaking with my doctor, Lactation Consultant and husband I began taking them Sunday night. "Z" is the #1 safest anti-depressant for breastfeeding mothers, virtually undectable in mother's milk and in the plasma of babies. I read somewhere that it's at its highest levels 7-10 hours after ingestion, so I take it at night, so it's at its peak when the Mouse is sleeping (and not nursing!).

Thanks so much for your thoughtful feedback and concern. :)