Monday, February 4, 2013

A New Normal?

Cinderella is home (YAY!)...with bright shiny new meds and a 60 year old psychiatrist with tattoos, piercings and gauges in his ears (Eww...but, KEWL!).

My butterfly has now faded and I am hopeful that I won't have to draw another one.

(HOWEVER, I am considering getting one TATTOO'd on my arm for her. I owe her a tattoo after getting an ambigram for her brother and sister after Prince Charming and I separated, and the symbolism of TRANSFORMATION seems fitting.)

In the meantime, I have hidden all of the Tylenol, Advil, cold medications and razors in the house.

This is normal, right? A new normal that the parent of a suicidal teen should expect?

And...MORE IMPORTANTLY...these fears will fade.



Unknown said...

GET the tattoo. You *both* deserve it.

I am SO happy she is home. So, so, so happy.

Everybody's normal is totally different. Enjoy yours.


Headstrong Damsel said...

These posts have really hit home with me, as I was once in Cinderella's shoes, and now find myself in your's (a few years ago at least, I'm starting my stepmom journey)

I can tell you from experience that having someone who believes in you can make all the difference. For me it was my Grandmother and an uncle who told me often that I was strong enough and I could make it through everything. I'm now past 30 and have only had one "incident" in the past 8 years.

It is an ongoing battle, my will vs the negative thoughts, but It does get better, you just both have to push through.

I have a heart tattooed to remind me that no matter how bad it gets there are people who love me, a horseshoe to remind me that I am lucky to be here, and an infinity symbol, to remind me that life goes from up to down and back again, but it always continues going on.

Stay strong!

Fraoch said...

I second Maggie's comment- you have both been through so much together, the tattoo would be a lovely statement.

Your normal is full of love. And that makes it beautiful.

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Ruby said...

Thanks for sharing your story! I just stumbled on your blog and - wow- you are dealing with a lot in your journey as a step. I'll be following your stories. Chin up!

The "Over Zelous" Stepmother said...

I think you are the most amazing stepmom in the world. I am always surprised byt the struggles you face and the patience you have in every situation. I think the fact that you have taken in your ex-stepdaughter really shows that being a stepparent is so much more than what people think, but that we love these children and treat them as we would any biological child.

Laura said...

So far behind on reading, but so glad to hear she is home & doing well.

Raju said...

Its a touching post. I would like to thanks you.

obxmegpie said...

Wow. I just found your blog and this was the first post that I read. I will definitely be following you! You and I are in the same boat sister. My 16 year old stepson just came home from a brief hospital stay, and I too had to hide any and all medications. It's nice to know there is someone in the world who can relate to this insanity!